there's definitely something changing within me. i can somehow feel it. i'm melting.

well, so much for numbing myself.

who can i actually blame for all this shite happening? i think that i only can blame one person. myself. i mean, it's my fault i can't keep these feelings in check. i can't seem to control, and i see my life spinning wayward-ly, and i somehow can't seem to get it on hold. i need spincontrol. gosh, i need help. will someone save me?

on a much, much lighter note,

my chocolate souffles were a SUCCESS!! HAHA. ((:

i'm super happy, since it wasn't the way it was supposed to be, cause it didn't boil, when the recipe said it had to boil, so yeah. i think, i will but a little less egg in too. haha. i just love baking. ((:

and, my little baby cousin erika, just can't be any cuter! haha. when i was watching cartoons with her, she fed me popcorn, without me even asking her to! haha, ain't she a doll! it's just those little things in life which makes you hold on, just a little longer.

gosh, when i do have the pictures, i will sure post them up. but, now using this camera, i have no idea how to upload those pictures here, so yeah. haha. i'm just such a computer dud.

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nighty night ya'll.

missing you.

manda.

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-- waiting // longing

for what's to come,

just hoping for the best

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but, the heart knows reasons that reason knows nothing of.